Sleepless In Bournemouth....

Meh, I'm wide awake, and I can't sleep at all. On top of that I'm bored.. which doesn't leave a good combination really. I've got quite a bit on my mind at the moment.

Listening to: "Dragon Force - Through The Fire And Flames" which isn't really my type of music at all, in fact I hate metal/heavy metal but I was round my friends house the other day and we were playing guitar hero 3 on the wii (with the guitar and everything.. it was such an awesome game!!) and that was one of the songs. I quite like it actually.. like I said, its not type of music at all, but this time its different.. I dunno, better than most other metal.

Anyway, so, what do I have on my mind? Well, its alot of things. Mostly money really. I got this awesome job at this really super duper hotel in Christchurch where I live for a commis chef. Bingo I though, just my luck, an awesome job right around the corner from me! I went for an interview and they gave me a shift to do. It was in one word; amazing! The kitchen was incredible, the chefs were amazing and the atmosphere in general was fantastic. I loved it. At the end though they came up to me and told me that unfortunately although they did like me the position was a full time commis chef. They told me that if a full time chef came along that was good they would have to give that person the job not me. However, they did shake my hand and thank me for working there. All in all I think it went quite good. Then the head chef said he would call me back soon and give me some more work - providing another chef didn't come along. Well, they never did ring... and it turns out another full time chef started working there.

I have been searching around for another job.. not hard enough according to my parents. They constantly moan at me for not having a job, and yeah I fully understand why, but at the same time they just want me to get a job anywhere that pays money! I tried explaining to them that my profession, what I am learning at college, what my career is, its catering. I am a chef, and thats all I'm ever going to be. But still, they are moaning at me all the time.. really I don't see why they are doing it, its hardly doing them any favours moaning at me.. and also I'm confused. They said that *quote..* "you need your own money, you are costing us too much!!" urm, I'm really not your average teenager. I don't go shopping 24/7, I don't buy myself games, cd's, dvds, clothes, new shoes, or anything like that. I have enough clothes, and 2 paires of shoes. All I get in a month is a £54 bus pass ... so how on earth I'm costing them "too much" I will never understand. And then of course when I question this the "don't be so naive" is followed by my mums patronising fat face. I will find a job soon enough. And I don't like it when they push me.. they might think i'm in deserape need for a job but the only money I need is £54 to get a bus pass and the money I owe them, which can wait - trust me!

Which brings me onto my next bit. College. I'm on first stage disciplinary at college at the moment for several things. Mostly missing time off which is pathetically stupid. Anyway, they told me I had the worse report they had seen and that although I will probably pass the course my chances of going to work placement in the summer (they send you to a top hotel, like the Ritz for example) and getting into the next year is slim. So, although I have pulled my weight, I've attended every class, and not missed any deadlines, I've been doing some serious thinking. It all started when my best friend Jay told me he wasn't going into the second year. The first year if we pass we get our VRQ L1 which is the same as a NVQ L2. The second year if we pass we get our VRQ L2 which is the same as a NVQ L3 (which is fantastic in other words). He told me he wasn't going into the second year. I was quite shocked and surprised actually because hes a damn good chef! I asked him what he was going to do and he told me that he was going to get an apprenticeship in a kitchen and study for his VRQ L2 by being a day realise student. This in more simple terms means that while working full time and earning full time wages, on his day off he can come into college and study for his VRQ L2 which he will take over the course of the year 1 or 2 days a week. The idea completely grabbed me, I mean fuck, most places are looking for a full time chef not a part time chef. What harm would it be to do the same as he is? To not go to the second year, become a full time chef and then be a day realise student? When I go back to college on Monday I will find out more about this, talk it over with my lecturers for a bit before I make any drastic choices.

Most importantly of all though I won't be telling my parents this anytime soon. This just doesn't concern them yet, and even if I did tell them I would get a bad reaction. Well, I'm not sure, they are so unpredictable I don't know what they would say. But hey, I'm not going to tell them yet. Knowing them though, they probably are spying on my blog reading this - somehow.

But this new idea, it just makes alot of sense to me.. for now anyway. I have much much bigger plans up my sleeve for later on. Much much bigger plans, and for now I will need catering and my career as a chef to fall back on if this bigger plan doesn't work. More on that at a later date. But trust me, its big!

I'm now listening to a far better song. "Tillmann Uhrmacher - On The Run (Ocean To Shore Club Extended version)" It is such a good club tune.. its a real chill out classic.. download it if you can! Its a bit of a long song but its so good, and club fans everywhere will love this! For now, I'm going to try and get some sleep. I have a huge house party tomorrow night which I'm pretty hyped up about! Its going to be nothing but booze, music and girls! Tons of people are coming, plenty of chicks and guys, so lets wait for the party to get started! woo! ha ha. My step dad was a bit .. mmm, weird about it. I really don't see why he doesn't like parties, they are great great fun! He is worried it will get out of hand as alot of people are coming. But honestly, what could go wrong? Yeah 1 or 2 people get drunk, there's a few 18 and 19 year olds going, most are only 17 though, but other than drunk teens what could go wrong? If any one starts trouble they get kicked out, plain and simple. No weed or drugs at the party. So really all its going to be is alot of dancing, alot of loud music, alot of alcohol and possibly sex if 2 people I think are going to get it on do! Really, what is there to be worried about.. fucking parents these days. And then they have the cheek to say to me "well when you have your own house you won't want a party in it either!" .. urm, I am nothing like my parents. My parents are nerds who don't have fun.. no offence to them. But my parents have a completely different idea of fun to me, and parties are fun.. I would defiantly have a party in my own place! Why not eh? To be honest, if I was allowed I would probably get 100+ people to this party tomorrow night.... the wilder and louder the party = the better! But thats just me, and for now seeing as I'm living under their roof I just have to agree and shut the fuck up. Then voice my real opinion in blogs for others to read. Have fun!